Thursday, November 11, 2004

Who the Hell are you?

My best friend has disappeared and in her place has stepped some selfish self centred brat. Come on, don't you think it's time you put being a mother to your three boys who are so fragile right now, ahead of this new boyfriend of yours? Thanks for cancelling or plans with my son for his birthday - although I don't understand and I'm sure he won't either.

I'm sorry, but being a single mother should be your priority right now, not finding and trying to keep another man already. How do you think those kids REALLY feel about it? Come on, their father after being arrested in front of them has only been gone for a couple of short months and you're already replacing him to them. Have you ever heard the term "revolving door father syndrom"? It's no wonder they're being uncontrollable!

Wake up, set your priorities straight, and get those children the help they need ASAP or you WILL lose them!

Wednesday, November 10, 2004

What the Hell am I doing?

It seems that all I want to do lately is sleep. I know it's depression setting in again, but just can't get up and do something about it. A few years ago it got really bad and for the first time I spoke to a Dr. about it - I would wake up sweating from dreams of hanging myself over my closet door.

I've suffered from depression since as far back as I can remember. I've been too embarrassed to talk about it because of the fear that people will look down on me. Sometimes I think I should have been an actress because I've become so good at hiding it from even my closest friends. When I have to, I can go through all of the smiling and normalcy but on the inside I'm crying all the time.